Dear Diary, I woke up happy, but it wasn't at my house, wasn't on my familiar bed either. The night before, I had met with some friends and it was a good evening. An evening of laughter, playfulness and more laughter. The friends are guys and I really like being around them, I'm a very guarded person when I'm around most people, by this I mean I still reserve a big part of me, I only show them the surface (which is nothing really), but these friends are one of the few males (heck even females) I lose all inhibitions with. I expose my "wild running child" and it amazes me how I'm able to just BE.
When I left that house, I went straight to my "top on the list" male best friend's house. The night prior, while I was with the male buds I just told you about, I pinged him to talk about a music meeting he planned...WITHOUT ME. I accidentally found out, as I do mostly.I let him know I was upset about being left out, I mean come on!! I'm supposed to be his nigga!! Anyways, I headed to his place and the first thing I saw when I opened his gate was a bird, a white bird, a pigeon to be precise. She was hurt and weak. For some weird reason, I feel like it was female, that the bird is female and not male. "You poor thing" I said to her in a solemn tone, she looked at me with tired eyes and I felt badly for her. The second thing I saw was a girl, a child of about 11,carrying dirty dishes to wash. I couldn't help but notice the unbelievably large amount of food that was going to be thrown away. Untouched rice and chicken, that was untouched to me! I don't care if a spoon or two had been eaten. God I felt so bad! So sad! What a sin, I consider it a sin to both God and humanity to waste food. Look at people on the streets who have nothing to eat! Some have never tasted chicken their entire lives!! Oh how I felt pain! I'm actually wiping stray tears as I write this, you will never know how things like this affect me, never.
I went upstairs and knocked on his door, he was temporarily deaf apparently so I had to call his cell. He came to open the door (finally!) and I pushed past him and entered his living room. I made a little fuss about the whole leaving me out thing while he watched with a bit of amusement. The others were late but eventually they arrived. Dextro, Dayo and Hemmy. Dextro plays the drum, Dayo is a pianist and Hemmy is a guitarist. I was...well, Amy for a bit until Dayo started playing that piano. Diary, I stopped speaking and just stood there, quiet, in complete awe... My legs got weak and I went to sit down. I could not believe a young guy could play that instrument in that manner, I watched him, I looked at him like he was a god, maybe he was, at that moment he was. Before he started playing, I had played the ONLY note I know how to play,, "I'm going home, I'm going home, I'm going home, to sin no more". That diary, is the ONLY note I know how to play on the keyboard. I want to learn, no other instrument calls to my soul other than the piano, it's why I have a deep respect for Singer Alicia Keys. Oh well...
I got tired after an hour and went to Andy's kitchen and decided I was gonna lie down. Andy is his name BTW. Why did I lie down on a kitchen floor and not on a proper bed or something?? Well I like doing things most people don't do, I looked at that floor and marveled at how clean and dry and spotless it was, I can almost swear I heard it say; "lie on me, Amy lie down". I lowered my body, my small body to that neat kitchen floor and I felt the welcoming coolness of it. I let my palm run across a spot for a minute before I put my earpiece into my ears and music sealed that beautiful moment for me. I find beauty in the strangest places.
I never like to cook for my male friends, not because I cannot cook, but because I passionately HATE when males assume "oh she's a female, go to the kitchen and cook for us". Are you mad? Is your brain epileptic?? I had this problem with my friends earlier on, the ones I was with before coming to Andy's. They had the expectation that I'd be the one to cook. Reason? I'm female. I blatantly refused and said I wouldn't. Eventually, we reached a compromise, one of the guys was to do the dishes and I would cook. A female ended up doing the dishes for them though, she came afterwards (lucky them). When I woke this morning, there I was, happy as a cat fed fresh milk, lazying on that soft bed, when Daniel came and tugged at my foot saying; "you're a girl, you shouldn't be lying on the bed by this time" Chineke God!!! These people know how to annoy me!! I fired back at him; "and boys? They get to lazy about on the bed by this time?? Because what? " My being a Feminist became a topic for serious debate for over an hour. Nah, we didn't get into serious quarrel or anything, it's why I love hanging with them, we talk (okay I shriek) and it never gets too serious. Back to Andy, as I lay on that floor listening to music from my phone, I suddenly felt the need to cook for my friends, my male friends. Andy was shocked, I know he was. Amy in all her majesty decided on her own to cook for a male friend. Ha! I think it was the piano, yes, it had to be that piano, shit casted a spell on me! I got up and cooked, I even served!! Andy was prolly in deep shock that he said; "Amy, God will give you better husband, husband that will accept you and your feminism". I was sitting on the kitchen floor when he said those words from the living room. I smiled deeply, very deeply and said; "Amen ooo". It sounded like I was joking, but I actually did lift that prayer to heaven. While I'm not worried about marriage, I literally DO NOT CARE if I marry or not, still an honest prayer should be lifted to God's throne above. Dextro (who was meeting me for the first time even though we chat on social media) was puzzled at Andy's comment and he asked Andy why he said those things. "You dunno Amy o, you will soon know her" he said. From the kitchen floor where I sat, I smiled very deeply. I did not clear the dishes and I told Andy so. "I'm NOT clearing those dishes" i said. He looked at me and knew I wasn't joking, I took away my gaze and went to pee in the bathroom, before I came out, he had cleared them, there was peace.
I hugged everyone and took my leave, Dextro rose to see my off. As we got to the stairs, I saw that pigeon, she had somehow managed to walk up those stairs, her eyes were shut and I could see how sick she was. "Please don't disturb her or chase her"I told Dextro. My voice made her open her eyes and she looked at me. I smiled with pity and I know she understood me, I'm not crazy, okay maybe I am, so what?! She knew she could trust me, I got the confirmation when I stepped forward and she didn't flinch or show fear. I told Dextro to follow my steps and we carefully walked over her without hurting or disturbing her. I looked back at her and whispered; "I hope you feel better and I hope you go home safely". She actually turned back and looked at me, aren't I lucky?? A beautiful creation of God looked at me!!
I'm on my familiar bed now, (okay to be honest, it belongs to my sister, even the room, I don't sleep in mine anymore, I have no clue why, I just don't). I'm happy, yes i did feel a bit of sadness at some point today but hey, emotions are meant to be felt right? Thank you for always staying quiet and listening Diary, thank you. 💋💋
When I left that house, I went straight to my "top on the list" male best friend's house. The night prior, while I was with the male buds I just told you about, I pinged him to talk about a music meeting he planned...WITHOUT ME. I accidentally found out, as I do mostly.I let him know I was upset about being left out, I mean come on!! I'm supposed to be his nigga!! Anyways, I headed to his place and the first thing I saw when I opened his gate was a bird, a white bird, a pigeon to be precise. She was hurt and weak. For some weird reason, I feel like it was female, that the bird is female and not male. "You poor thing" I said to her in a solemn tone, she looked at me with tired eyes and I felt badly for her. The second thing I saw was a girl, a child of about 11,carrying dirty dishes to wash. I couldn't help but notice the unbelievably large amount of food that was going to be thrown away. Untouched rice and chicken, that was untouched to me! I don't care if a spoon or two had been eaten. God I felt so bad! So sad! What a sin, I consider it a sin to both God and humanity to waste food. Look at people on the streets who have nothing to eat! Some have never tasted chicken their entire lives!! Oh how I felt pain! I'm actually wiping stray tears as I write this, you will never know how things like this affect me, never.
I went upstairs and knocked on his door, he was temporarily deaf apparently so I had to call his cell. He came to open the door (finally!) and I pushed past him and entered his living room. I made a little fuss about the whole leaving me out thing while he watched with a bit of amusement. The others were late but eventually they arrived. Dextro, Dayo and Hemmy. Dextro plays the drum, Dayo is a pianist and Hemmy is a guitarist. I was...well, Amy for a bit until Dayo started playing that piano. Diary, I stopped speaking and just stood there, quiet, in complete awe... My legs got weak and I went to sit down. I could not believe a young guy could play that instrument in that manner, I watched him, I looked at him like he was a god, maybe he was, at that moment he was. Before he started playing, I had played the ONLY note I know how to play,, "I'm going home, I'm going home, I'm going home, to sin no more". That diary, is the ONLY note I know how to play on the keyboard. I want to learn, no other instrument calls to my soul other than the piano, it's why I have a deep respect for Singer Alicia Keys. Oh well...
I got tired after an hour and went to Andy's kitchen and decided I was gonna lie down. Andy is his name BTW. Why did I lie down on a kitchen floor and not on a proper bed or something?? Well I like doing things most people don't do, I looked at that floor and marveled at how clean and dry and spotless it was, I can almost swear I heard it say; "lie on me, Amy lie down". I lowered my body, my small body to that neat kitchen floor and I felt the welcoming coolness of it. I let my palm run across a spot for a minute before I put my earpiece into my ears and music sealed that beautiful moment for me. I find beauty in the strangest places.
I never like to cook for my male friends, not because I cannot cook, but because I passionately HATE when males assume "oh she's a female, go to the kitchen and cook for us". Are you mad? Is your brain epileptic?? I had this problem with my friends earlier on, the ones I was with before coming to Andy's. They had the expectation that I'd be the one to cook. Reason? I'm female. I blatantly refused and said I wouldn't. Eventually, we reached a compromise, one of the guys was to do the dishes and I would cook. A female ended up doing the dishes for them though, she came afterwards (lucky them). When I woke this morning, there I was, happy as a cat fed fresh milk, lazying on that soft bed, when Daniel came and tugged at my foot saying; "you're a girl, you shouldn't be lying on the bed by this time" Chineke God!!! These people know how to annoy me!! I fired back at him; "and boys? They get to lazy about on the bed by this time?? Because what? " My being a Feminist became a topic for serious debate for over an hour. Nah, we didn't get into serious quarrel or anything, it's why I love hanging with them, we talk (okay I shriek) and it never gets too serious. Back to Andy, as I lay on that floor listening to music from my phone, I suddenly felt the need to cook for my friends, my male friends. Andy was shocked, I know he was. Amy in all her majesty decided on her own to cook for a male friend. Ha! I think it was the piano, yes, it had to be that piano, shit casted a spell on me! I got up and cooked, I even served!! Andy was prolly in deep shock that he said; "Amy, God will give you better husband, husband that will accept you and your feminism". I was sitting on the kitchen floor when he said those words from the living room. I smiled deeply, very deeply and said; "Amen ooo". It sounded like I was joking, but I actually did lift that prayer to heaven. While I'm not worried about marriage, I literally DO NOT CARE if I marry or not, still an honest prayer should be lifted to God's throne above. Dextro (who was meeting me for the first time even though we chat on social media) was puzzled at Andy's comment and he asked Andy why he said those things. "You dunno Amy o, you will soon know her" he said. From the kitchen floor where I sat, I smiled very deeply. I did not clear the dishes and I told Andy so. "I'm NOT clearing those dishes" i said. He looked at me and knew I wasn't joking, I took away my gaze and went to pee in the bathroom, before I came out, he had cleared them, there was peace.
I hugged everyone and took my leave, Dextro rose to see my off. As we got to the stairs, I saw that pigeon, she had somehow managed to walk up those stairs, her eyes were shut and I could see how sick she was. "Please don't disturb her or chase her"I told Dextro. My voice made her open her eyes and she looked at me. I smiled with pity and I know she understood me, I'm not crazy, okay maybe I am, so what?! She knew she could trust me, I got the confirmation when I stepped forward and she didn't flinch or show fear. I told Dextro to follow my steps and we carefully walked over her without hurting or disturbing her. I looked back at her and whispered; "I hope you feel better and I hope you go home safely". She actually turned back and looked at me, aren't I lucky?? A beautiful creation of God looked at me!!
I'm on my familiar bed now, (okay to be honest, it belongs to my sister, even the room, I don't sleep in mine anymore, I have no clue why, I just don't). I'm happy, yes i did feel a bit of sadness at some point today but hey, emotions are meant to be felt right? Thank you for always staying quiet and listening Diary, thank you. 💋💋
You have mad abi? Talking to a chicken and d chicken understood and even spoke back at you..... *straight faced* I do hope they eat that darn bird.
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