Dear Diary, a great deal has happened since I last wrote. The year is at it's "semi final", I know, still I'll wish you a HAPPY NEW YEAR, seeing as I didn't write to you since the beginning of this year. I just wasn't inspired, I don't think I was experiencing that "writer's block" thingie, I just wasn't inspired enough to write. I have changed, even I am low key afraid of the change. Pros and cons, advantages and disadvantages...... I almost didn't survive to be 26. I was deathly ill the week before my birthday. I was afraid, I'll be honest with you. I asked some people to pray for me. It was a miracle I survived. Twice, I almost went under the knife, twice it was canceled. I have let that go,, for now. What's the use in fighting it? What's the use in giving myself a headache?? I've done all I can to stay stable, I have been stable (glory be to God!), I need stable health to pursue my every goal and dream, r...