Dear Diary, today there is nothing to tell you, nothing. Let me tell you what I'm thinking right now. I'm thinking of how happy I am, how happy I have been throughout this month of September. Happiness doesn't come easy for me, I struggle to find it, very simple, yet, complicated.... I've had a lot of miracles the universe blessed me with this month, with God allowing them to happen of course. You know, when I hear these blind people who think they know all about God and his ways talk, I laugh, and i wonder if they have any sense at all. How can you believe in God and not believe in his universe??
I recall a day, a normal day when I was sitting near one "oh so religious, righteous and I'm definitely going to heaven" person. A lady passed and was wearing what some consider "indecent". This "righteous" person literally condemned and passed all judgement upon the other lady. Reason? Outfit. I shook my head and wondered where in the Bible Jesus Christ passed judgement or spoke ill of a "sinner". Turned out, that "indecently dressed" lady had a better heart than "miss I'm too holy". I tell people all the time, give me that "prostitute" with a kind heart and take your virgin with a heart full of hate. It'll do me good to be friends with the prostitute than be around that demonic virgin. Yes, even the Devil wears Prada haven't you heard??
I smiled a lot this month, I cried too (lord knows). At the end of last month/the beginning of this month, I was deathly ill, I was in very bad shape, not getting up, not eating.. I thought I wasn't gonna survive,, to be honest. But God gave me love in form of humans, I had Trina who told me to stay alive, that I hadn't met Beyonce and that at the very least, I deserve to meet her before I die. That statement made me decide I wasn't gonna die, (oh I was tired and was actually considering dying). Trina knows how to push the right buttons on me. Zee is/was another human who kept me strong. I remember the night I wrote a status (BBM), she sent me a message instantly (she had been checking on me prior this). I remember how I cried via a voice note I sent to her, I wonder if she was able to hear anything, I was choking and crying and talking. That woman was the only one among the sect of people in that group who was GENUINELY concerned about me and my health. (This is not to say a few others didn't care, I'm simply saying she was there every step of the way). She never let me wallow in self pity or misery, she told me it wasn't even that serious and that was really helpful. Joy Ejekuife is another human who was concerned and kept calling me. A few other people too, I'm thankful to have them in my life and I hope they find peace, joy and happiness.
I'm in a good place right now, I have been for the past 3weeks. I haven't been sickly and my energy is all back to me now. Will I have a few moments of sadness? Sure! But I know it won't kill me, I'll always come back. I am after all, God's spoiled brat. Love, peace and light to everyone who loves me. #ByeBye
I recall a day, a normal day when I was sitting near one "oh so religious, righteous and I'm definitely going to heaven" person. A lady passed and was wearing what some consider "indecent". This "righteous" person literally condemned and passed all judgement upon the other lady. Reason? Outfit. I shook my head and wondered where in the Bible Jesus Christ passed judgement or spoke ill of a "sinner". Turned out, that "indecently dressed" lady had a better heart than "miss I'm too holy". I tell people all the time, give me that "prostitute" with a kind heart and take your virgin with a heart full of hate. It'll do me good to be friends with the prostitute than be around that demonic virgin. Yes, even the Devil wears Prada haven't you heard??
I smiled a lot this month, I cried too (lord knows). At the end of last month/the beginning of this month, I was deathly ill, I was in very bad shape, not getting up, not eating.. I thought I wasn't gonna survive,, to be honest. But God gave me love in form of humans, I had Trina who told me to stay alive, that I hadn't met Beyonce and that at the very least, I deserve to meet her before I die. That statement made me decide I wasn't gonna die, (oh I was tired and was actually considering dying). Trina knows how to push the right buttons on me. Zee is/was another human who kept me strong. I remember the night I wrote a status (BBM), she sent me a message instantly (she had been checking on me prior this). I remember how I cried via a voice note I sent to her, I wonder if she was able to hear anything, I was choking and crying and talking. That woman was the only one among the sect of people in that group who was GENUINELY concerned about me and my health. (This is not to say a few others didn't care, I'm simply saying she was there every step of the way). She never let me wallow in self pity or misery, she told me it wasn't even that serious and that was really helpful. Joy Ejekuife is another human who was concerned and kept calling me. A few other people too, I'm thankful to have them in my life and I hope they find peace, joy and happiness.
I'm in a good place right now, I have been for the past 3weeks. I haven't been sickly and my energy is all back to me now. Will I have a few moments of sadness? Sure! But I know it won't kill me, I'll always come back. I am after all, God's spoiled brat. Love, peace and light to everyone who loves me. #ByeBye
A moment of sheer happiness
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