Dear Diary, I'm writing this part almost immediately, I decided not to wait, the rest I will wait, but this is urgent for me. I woke up feeling heavy hearted, I'm not sure why. My heart started singing Jasmine Thomson's "do it now" so I opened one eye and grabbed my phone, plugged my ear piece in my ears and searched my playlist for that song. I needed to cry, the old me wasn't a girl who cried, she was a girl who took it all in until her heart ached, she saw crying as a sign of weakness and she was not a weak girl. The new me knows better, she knows that crying is strength and not weakness, it does afterall take a strong person to express emotion. Next I played Jasmine's "adore you" and I allowed my self cry, I backed Gloria and quietly cried, she didn't know. I cried with my eyes closed and the music played on. May heaven bless Bianca Bella for being the one to introduce me to Jasmine Thomson's music. My sister came in from the bathroom and I opened one eye again, you see, my sister is 80% affected by me and my energies so I do my best to project positive energies for her sake, she might cry if she saw me crying...I don't know, I won't take the risk. I needed my father, the king of the universe. All I could say was the prayer Jesus Christ taught me and the rest of Christians.. "The Lord's Prayer,,, Our Father." I asked the Blessed Virgin to intercede for me then I prayed her prayer, I told my father to take away this heaviness and as I write, I feel it going away. Love and Light to me and my soul.
The day before, Gloria had told me we were both going to Festac town, I was about to bathe when Ogechi (the sister) came in and told me something that sent me into rage! Diary, I am very dangerous when I go into that...thing. I become 'possessed' and I'm no longer me, in the past I couldn't control myself when I entered this... 'con dar' as Sarah (my Uni roomie and paddy) used to call it. She got that term from the series "Legend of the Seeker", it was something the "Mother Confessor" would go into sometimes and wouldn't be herself anymore, she would destroy things and people too, when it was all over, the thing leaves her and she either breaks down crying, or she is satisfied, depends on what triggered it. Anyways, that is how it happens with me, I learned to control it when I nearly killed a girl back in 2011. She had taken a photo of me when I was looking like a mad woman and she wanted to post it, I warned her to delete the photo and give me the phone to confirm, she didn't listen, Sarah (who knows how I can be) started telling her to please listen to me to avoid problems, the girl didn't. Short story shorter, I banged her head against a very hard wall and she went still for what felt like forever, the rage that had taken over me started to leave and began to see what I'd done. She began to cry loudly in a hoarse voice, I knew I had hurt her badly. I knelt and apologized but she screamed at me and told me never to come close to her ever, she threw the phone at me and told me to eat the photo if I wanted. Sarah begged her and told her, "sheybi I told you not to drag with Amaka, now you have seen it". Despite the situation I chuckled. The migraine the girl had for many days?? Lemme not even talk about it. Anyways, this gist my sister gave me sent me into rage and I started breathing very fast. Jerry and Gloria saved both me and the person I was going to attack because trust me, I wanted blood. My mother keeps telling my sister not to report things to me for fear of my reaction, in a way she is right, I don't react well sometimes, especially when a person feels like they can behave anyhow and get away with it. Is their father a Chairman or an Alhaji? Mtcheew!
I got ready and we both left, the rage replaced with happiness now. Before we left, I tried my Uber app but didn't get any available cars (because those Uber people feel like it's only wild animals that live in Alagbado). Every time I try the app from my house, I never get any car, but lemme leave my vicinity, I wee be seeing plenty plenty cars up and dan. Ndi nzuzu! As we were walking down the street to the bustop, it started to drizzle. MY MAKEUP!!!! I didn't beat my face to stupor for rain to comman ruin it! I saw a shade and yelled for Gloria to follow me. Gloria the "greety greety geh" started to greet the guy standing there and I mentally saw myself slapping her teeth off. I don't like to talk to anyone as I walk, I really don't! Call me rude or arrogant if you want, your problem not mine. It's why I'm never without my earpiece. I checked my app once more, I suppose I was praying for a miracle and true, I got my miracle! One car, only one car, (not like I needed more than one anyways but do you get how lucky I was??!) He was just across the road, all we had to do was cross over!! Omo! I dialed his number faster than Usain Bolt could run a few meters. He picked up almost immediately and I confirmed that his location was accurate with what I could see on the app, affirmative. I dragged Gloria out and the yeye girl was doing like an agric fowl that didn't hatch well. "My hair, my outfit, bla bla". Diary, if looks could kill, that dear girl woulda been dead and decayed. I shot her a very angry stare and told her "the earlier we get into that car, the better for your hair, clothes and maybe even nails, mtchew!" The uber driver spotted us and came with a small umbrella, he saw that I wasn't bothered by the small shower so he gave it to madam agric fowl. Upon the umbrella, you won't believe she still wasn't willing to walk up to that car! Me? I saw that the dear man had opened the door for us to enter and I jogged the small distance and got settled in. Let agric fowl be there o, me I dun have time for senrenre, not today. She sha got in and the trip started. Uber driver for today was feeling chatty and because of manners, I responded. I prayed in my heart for him to STFU already! Soon he asked me; "which station would you like to listen to". Erm, no, I didn't pick Ekofm, I opted for Beat99 because of music. They were having a global countdown and I was elated. Gloria who had blocked her ears with her earpiece since we started the trip, was singing off key and I rolled my eyes. Soon I got bored and blocked my own ears too, my playlist is FIRE just so you know. I cruised and watched people as we moved.
Destination reached, money paid. It was not awa money sha o, ope o! Uber has made me poor, as if I was not poor enough before. I was introduced to her friend who in turn introduced me to his friend. I smiled at them both and chose to act shy. Reason? I didn't want to be engaged in any long conversation(s). It helped, they left me out of it, till it was time to pick a drink that is. "Water" I said. "Why water? You want to tell me you don't drink alcohol?". Me; "no sir, I take alcohol but it's mostly wine and Amarula, I don't like other things very much". "So why water today?" Me: "I just would like water that's all, thanks very much". You see, contrary to what some people think, I eat and drink healthy most of the time, if it's not a party, honey gimme water or something organic please? Thank you! Even when I drink, I NEVER get drunk, I have a knack for control, I MUST stay conscious ALWAYS, thank you again! So it's never a full cup for me, always half or a little above, I just need the "buzz", once I'm "buzzed", I'm done. They sha left me alone and i could tell they saw me as a stuck up, very boring girl. Works for me baybay, works for Amy just fine.
Coming home was another wahala, we rode the public bus this time and it was very uncomfortable! From the bus conductor who was yelling at a passenger for not paying the complete fare, to the woman who was shouting, "chips! Plantain chips!!" I couldn't quite decide which of them I wanted to shoot first (I wish). I blocked them out with music and minded my business. The driver didn't even stop us at Oshodi gan, we had to walk towards Oshodi. Another bus (the final one) and our journey home continued. Lagos nawa! Traffic wanted to kill me!!! My bum bum and waist ached, my skin began to itch, in short, it was HORRIBLE! We both couldn't wait to get off that bus, as in we literally didn't wait for it to halt before we jumped out, (yes, agric fowl became a native chicken). I smiled when I saw Gloria jump (atta girl!). Hunger was 'wassup' so we quickly went to wash hands and dug into our food, we 'took away'. Semo and Bitterleaf soup with catfish was mine, Pounded yam and Afang with ponmo and catfish for her. I don't eat late, especially not a heavy meal (because tummy must stay flat or I kill it), but tonight, I wolfed it down! It was heavenly!! As usual, I couldn't finish it, not even my catfish, mtchew! I had hoped I would be able to. Meh! Diary, enough with the amebo, goan mind your business small. Kachifuo.
Blessings of my day
Didee is one girl i love, bless her heaven.
Laila is beyond beautiful, i adore her
This i found funny yet sweet
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