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Wednesday the 7th of December, 2016.

Dear Diary, how are ya? Been a minute eh? I have been FABULOUS thank you for asking! My happiness level is increased day by day, I still go zero to a hundred on people (when I need to) but other than that, I'm chill. I'm not a perfect human, mba, faaar from it. But if there's one thing I try to do, I try to make myself a better version than I was yesterday. Is this easy? Hell naw! But I try. I admit when I'm wrong, I apologize when I'm wrong, I even ignore some things I would normally address. Today, I was going through Instagram and I saw a written meme that said "I look up and I see a blue sky, another person may look up and call it green, I don't argue with that person, I simply go home with the realization that to that person, the sky looks green". (I edited the words but basically this was it).

I posted a photo on one of my darling groups, a photo which told a story, a story which the photographer was trying to pass. My darling friends didn't get me, they argued and counter argued and etc. Normally, I would come belligerent but this time, I was oddly calm. I admit I was a bit disappointed that they didn't get it but people see things differently as one of the members stated, I agreed completely with her. Eventually, I saw that someone finally got it, got me. I read a comment that in my opinion was targeted at spiting me but with my current peaceful energy, I choose not to respond, at least not now. I am learning to handle controversies now (well I kinda view it that way) because I have a big picture ahead, if I cannot deal with something small, how will I cope with something major??

I'm still a work in progress, there are many, many things I still need to work on, but I'm hopeful, you know what they say about Rome and the number of days it took to build it. I love and appreciate them still, they make me a better person, they just dunno it. I learn from them like EVERYDAY. They make me aware of things I wasn't aware of, so in many ways, I'm thankful for my group members, all of them.

How are you planning for this Christmas Diarina?? I certainly haven't gotten any decent thing to wear yet. Please don't even dare tell me I'm too old for the traditional "Christmas cloth", I will curse you! Lol. The sun has been soooo hot, I feel like I'm going through menopause. Love and light to you, yours and everyone who reads my "private thoughts" here. #Shalom.


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